First Impression.

Monday, March 17, 2014

Hello there fellow readers, 
from my title, I believe you can tell what I'm going to be writing about today.
First Impression.
Its something that I always failed at, 
for some reasons, I always portray a negative impression to others before they get to know me. 
I don't even know why and whether it is good or bad.
I was talking to a friend the other day and I was asking him if I gave him a bad impression, 
he actually said yes. 
and its not a bad thing to know, 
I'm actually quite glad to hear it from a friend because I then got inspiration to write this paragraph of words.

If you are a penangite, 
you MIGHT heard rumors of me, 
and the funny thing is, 
the people that spread rumors about me, aren't even my friends. 
Funny how they can scroll through my instagram & blog and "pretend" to know me personally and give plenty of comments to my real friends when they have no rights to. 
So I presumed that its my outlooks and first impression that failed to portray a positive impression. 

1st. I'm proud & lansi. 
I admit that I look pretty fierce when I'm not smiling, 
but you don't expect me to smile at every single person that I met on the road whether or not I know them right??
it makes no sense at all, I am only nice to people that I know personally, 
and if I smile to everybody I meet, you might probably spread a new rumor saying I'm a complete psycho.
What I heard was,
I act friendly and nice on my blog and instagram but when they met me in person, I'm damn lansi, 
don't know lansi for what.
damn 冤枉 lor I tell you.
if you think reading my blog and instagram can get to know me inside out ah,
I can get to know Venice min or angelababy by scrolling through their websites too. -____-

2nd. I am a gold digger. 
this is a good one, I am pretty surprised when I heard this rumor, 
because funny thing is, I've been with my boyfriend for 2 years now, which is the longest relationship I've had so far, 
so what I heard was that I am with this boyfriend for this long is because he's rich and I'm a gold digger. 
Guess what?
some times, we split the bill, 
we hardly buy each other expensive presents unless there's a special occasion, 
Valentines day is not included. Because we both think that its a business man's idea on making people's hard earned money. 
the most expensive gift he had got me so far, was the pandora bracelet and he got me 2 charms now. 
If I were to be a gold digger, 
2 years time, 
I could've dig out a Chanel bag, balenciaga/miumiu bracelet, more than a pair of Louboutin ........ETC ETC. 
but I didn't because I love him with all my heart, 
and not his wallet or bank account. 
plus, when I first dated him, he was just a student. 

3rd. I only hang out with friends that brings me benefits. 
This means that I only hang out with rich people, famous people...
I'm not rich myself, so I can't mingle well with rich kids,
I'm not famous also, plus if my friends are famous, its not my business? so how does it even affects me?
I believe in true friendship, and not friends for benefits (in another way, not the dirty way)
Most of my friends aren't even rich or famous,
so I don't know where this impression came from.
I have a good friend that I hang out with almost everyday,
before she get to know me personally,
she heard negative rumors about me saying I'm freaking 2 faced, I'm damn proud,
I like washing rich kid's asses...
but after being really close,
she told me one thing
"You're nothing like how people described you"
from the first day of being friends till now,
we never argued,
not even for small matters.
and she's now one of my closest best friend that I trust with all my heart.

4th. I'm materialistic
this connects to my 2nd & 3rd statement,
its funny how other people spread that I'm a spoiled brat, just because I'm the only child at home.
Yes, I got my own car once I got my license,
that is also because I freaking live in Batu Ferringhi,
you want me to take bus everyday? -___-
my parents won't take the risk. because.....busses are scary for girls that travel alone.
how do you even think I'm materialistic??
I don't even buy branded goods!
if you think I do,
name one expensive branded bag that I own :P
*converse not counted lah*
some of you even laughed at me for wearing fake chanel earrings,
fake this fake that. *I prefer calling them INSPIRED hahaha*
ya lah, I wear fake stuff because I'm not rich mar,
and if someone dares to sell then I dare to buy cannot? :P
at least I don't shove it in your face and brag that it is real.
so how?
realize that I'm not materialistic dy anot?
moving on....

5th. I fake my accent.
You might think I'm a typical chinese that speaks super broken english just because I was from chinese primary, and both chinese private junior high and chinese convent senior high.
But we speak pretty good english back in primary school & kindergarten.
I'm not saying that my english is amazing, I do have some grammar mistakes every now and then.
I am glad that I have amazing friends that speaks good english around me since young,
so from there I get to learn how to speak english well.
Plus, there is a reason why I pick up mass communication course,
because I love writing and speaking,
so my parents paid good money for good education,
you don't expect me to disappoint them do you..? x)
and even if I'm faking my accent,
I must say that I did a pretty good job then :P

That's pretty much it,
I haven't been writing for such a long time, I think my last update was last week.
so sorry if I rant & blabber too much in this post,
but I have been meaning to clarify all these things for a long long time.
and I finally did it,
I understand that being a blogger, and now, a YouTuber,
I have to accept what people think of me,
yes, I chose to publish a part of my life on the internet and that is also why I need to take in the bad comments too.
but for me,
I'm also a human being with feelings,
you can't just judge a book by its cover, spread it around and make it real.
It is not fair.
and me being me,
I have to stand up for myself, and prove these people wrong.
because if I can't do such a simple thing for myself,
who else is going to help me?

of course,
I also know that I can't change people's mindset and thoughts,
can't even stop them from saying such things about me.
Think about it,
do you want people to have those thoughts about you in return?
if you don't,
then don't do it to others.
*karma do exist you know?*
So, what is your first impression towards me? ;)

Before I sign off,
here's my latest youtube video.
Phone challenge ft Carmen Ngo
Peace! xo Jxhia


  1. We live for ourself and our loves one <3 So why care of them, maybe we can tell ourself we are popular so they talk about us right? haha!! keep it up Jxhia!!

  2. haha at first also i heard a little negative things about you. but after meeting you, my first impression was this girl really pretty and talk very straight forward! haha :P

  3. 5th faking accent. OMG I have to cry out loud and shout hell yea, I mean ya I'm trying to avoid speaking English to a few people or new friends cause they expect me to speak broken English just because I was graduated from both Chinese primary and secondary schools. No first impression towards you cause I'm just a follower. :D

  4. Im a freshman same as your college. I first saw you and my expression was what a typical chinese girl. But after seeing your blogs and youtube videos, I was amaze. Keep up. Btw what course do you take? Mass Communication? If yes, you got a great future coming to you. xD